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This is by far, the most captivating book I have ever read. It took me only a day, to finish the whole book. It's a pretty short story, but it was beautifuly written.

So, the story revolves around Kate Fitzgerald who has died and to her astonishment, she finds herself wandering and hovering around in a limbo like state. She's also able to invisibly travel above and visit her friends, family and her beloved home.

Not only she's able to see what is happening after her demise, but she discovers many things in her life that she didnt know before.

You have to read the book by yourself, I'm not a good story-teller :p

There's a thin line between make-up and break-up

The constant fights we have, does it ever go away?
I hope it does, because it's getting harder each day.


I'm not fine, not okay. How I wish things are not ugly as it seems, I've never been in this kind of situation before. My previous relationship didnt encounter this kind of issue, I can't say that it went smooth but in the beginning of it, it was really nice.

Maybe he's not the right one for me, there's even hardly something in common between us. Everything I say, doesnt seem to make sense to him. It's all crap and bullshit. For all I know, I was pulling out every nerve I have to explain things to him and making him understand. I am practically entangled.

My head's too heavy now, maybe I need space and time. Also, I need comfort. I lost the will to fight, and I'm trying my best to tolerate. Am I capable of losing this guy? I don't have the answer.

I will try to figure things out, I will make a decision. Hopefully, it will be a wise one :)

Is it something that we just forgive and move on, or there's more to it?

ERINNA says:
I want you to not shut me down, if things get rough. I want you to let me in, even though we're fighting like crazy. I want you to still be able to see me even if we're not in good terms. You have to know, i'm freaking fragile and i can break any time, and i'm sorry that you'll always be the victim but i'm trying. So what's your verdict?


Something happened before that, something that has led me to the road of my insides. I'm still trying to digest everything, everything that has been said. A small part of me kept bugging me to let it go, you know. Soft whispers came, telling me that I can't go through this anymore. I can't keep up with the never-ending fights. But, I can't let go.


I was trying to make things up, but he thinks he was the one who tried to make things up the whole day. I know it's bloody hard to put up with me, I have terrible mood swings. And when i'm having my mood swings, and you happen to tickle me at the wrong part then you're just asking for a storm.

I can't elaborate, sorry.

Thanks for the memories

The best days of our lives

From left to right : shua, sha, fyka and me.

Thai Express, Curve. Fyka's farewell

From left to right : zira, amir, aqil, imran, izmir and me

Paddington house of pancakes, Curve. My eighteenth celebration

Fyka's leaving for National Service.

Chillis, Ou. Fyka's eighteenth celebration.

Meet my bestfriend, aqil.

Backstreet boys concert, Sunway Surf Beach

Meet aqil's sweeeet ex-girlfriend, Dina.

Sheraton Imperial, before prom night.

From left to right : mel, mayn, izmir, sha, marie, shua, saachi, kevin, koo, aqil, aizat and me

Baskin Robbins, Hartamas. The best picture of all, the night after spm

Latest addiction

I can't wait, I can't wait for the movie. Here in Malaysia, the movie's releasing on 31st July 2008.

I'm walking alone on a rainy day, and I can't find a shelter.

"The great art of life is sensation, to feel that we exist, even in pain."


I can stare at this empty page blatantly for hours, and still I can't come up with something magnificent to write about.

Is it due to an enclosed mind? The mind who can't even interpret our own vulnerable feelings, are we not able to express our feelings? Or are we not able to put it into words? Here's an alarming thought, maybe we're just not capable of saying it in the most graceful way.

Why do we feel empty sometimes? Is it because we're lonely? Many questions rumbling through my mind, and I can't seem to find the answer. What do we want out of life, really? Company of a loved one? Success? Tons of cash? And to those who are married, are they just seeking a fulfilled conjugal bond?
Let's put it it this way, if we can't figured what we want out of life, we won't be able to shoot the ball into the goal. So people, make up your mind.


When you were young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun and experiencing non-living fairytales. Then you grow up and learn to be cautious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you dont leap at all because theres not always someone there to catch you. and, in life theres no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary? You tell me.

I'm vulnerable, I know. In fact, I can be the most fragile person you've ever met. I'm scared, most of the time. I built up my own restrictions, so that I won't be exposed to damages. Truth is, I'm not a hardcore person, I would constantly look before I jump. For instance, I don't do rollercoasters nor bungee jumping because i'm scared of heights and people die there(haha). Aren't I wary enough?

The lessons that we learnt in life, does it make us a better person? Does it have a some kind of phenomenal effect on us? The pain that we are subjected to, does the lessons lessen the pain? Morally, our behaviour relates to our situation in life. As we get older, we learn more and become a wise person and we occasionally slow down long enough to savor certain moments. Hopefully, we live a fulfilled life until the last day of our lives.

All that I inspired to be, you'll see

" To be happy, it first takes being comfortable being in your own shoes. The rest can work up from there. The hardest situation to stay happy in, I think, is when you're trying to find love, and yourself at the same time. It just doesn't seem to fit well. So I believe that happiness is being able to wake up and just know that this is what you wanted, and not what somebody else wanted. "

This is just something random,

I am eighteen this year.

I never knew that I wanted to be doctor, until I was convinced and given major support that I can be one.

I think music is the best invention of melody. Good music is equivalent to good entertainment.

Never go to bed mad. Stay up and fight.

You don't get the things that you wish for, often. You get things that are meant for you, so be grateful.

I believe that all people are good at heart.

I appreciate people who can express their feelings in an educated manner, I appreciate people who can write, and be able to munch the 'events' of daily lives and learn from it.

I enjoy the company of the people I love.

I have a HUGE crush on Kyle Patrick, he has an amazing voice.

And, I'm yearning for a happy ending.